When I Sleep...

So there are a lot of reasons why I like to drink. Two or the most recent ones came to me last night while I was sober.

01: I cannot fall asleep. I just ly in bed for like an hour, which is really annoying and makes me tired in the morning.

02: I don't sleep soundly. I wake up a lot, which I guess I do that anyway, but waking up drunk because you have to pee is somehow less irritating than waking up for no reason sober.

and

03: When I sleep soberly, I have really bad dreams. Then I ly awake scared of whatever it was I was dreaming about.

For instance, last night I had just falling asleep and I started having a bad dream. I was trying to wake up because I didn't want to dream about it. My body was twitching so much, it scared Kitten and when he moved to get off the bed is when I woke up. I blame last nights dream on the discussion of scary movies and dolls, and how I hate them, and playing with the dogs, and actually maybe also watching some previews for some upcoming movies; sober minds are mean minds.

I remember last week, I didn't drink because I didn't feel so hot, for reasons I cannot disclose, and I woke up in the middle of the night crying. Like actual tears were coming out of my eyes. I cannot remember why anymore, but wtf?

Perhaps I should leave one of the four composition books by my bed at night and write down the dreams that I have and send them off for analyzing. My brain has issues.